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Today is nad’s birthday.. Hope she’s having a wonderful time with her new family and friends. She was gonna have a garden party yesterday… if I’m not mistaken. I’m ashamed to say that I don’t really know.. simply because we haven’t spoken to each other in a while.. I think this distance between us is bad.. very bad.. and the time difference suck. We are both always so busy.. I miss her..

Ais is equally far away.. I miss her.. I miss David. I also miss everyone in Holland.. :/

I’ve survived a long distance relationship once.. and now my best friends are living far away.. I told myself once that I’d avoid long distance relationship or friendship if I could.. but I cannot. And I know that in future I’ll have more long distance relationships that I have to deal with.. sometimes the road we choose to take brings us to strange and faraway places.. sometimes it makes the relationships that you leave behind stronger.. other times, not..

I know that for any relationship or friendship to keep flourishing.. both parties need to put in effort. Its a two way street of course.. we cannot expect the other party to constantly make the effort while we sit on our bums and wait. I admit I let my daily exhaustion after a hard day’s work get in the way of making that phonecall.. sometimes I am so exhausted that I simply fall asleep the moment I step into my house… sometimes I just want to sit in front of the tv and not worry about other things.. most of the times, I just fall asleep in front of the tv.. and sometimes, I’m just lazy. I know that my best friends would feel the same way.. I don’t expect a call from them every day.. and they don’t expect that of me either.. that would be simply ridiculous.

Whatever it is.. I know that I have to give her a call tomorrow.. and wish her a happy birthday. I wish I could take her out and just hang out together.. but times have changed.. we all have our own lives now..

I haven’t been able to find time to sit down and write new entries for my blog… tsk tsk… before I get any lazier, I better write something small now.

I intend to add a whole lot more things to my website for sure. More personal stuff like an intro page about myself and all the important people in my life. That will take a little longer of course.. maybe after the students sit for their N level examinations… early October. Thats what I am worried about.. for now.. unfortunately, some of these students don’t seem to be half as worried as me.. and THAT is scary! Times have changed for sure.. or maybe, its their personality.. maybe they just cannot be bothered about exams.. about the future.. they just want to take things as it comes.. of course, there’s nothing wrong in that.. but I still find it difficult because I am not one who just goes about life with no directions.. I need an aim.. I need a focus.. I’m doing what I wanted to do since I was a kid.. once I got that, I needed a new focus.. maybe not as huge as what I wanted before.. but something important..

I guess its just the way that I am.. I need to look forward to something. I guess it gives me a sense of security.. I need that. I need to know all the possible outcomes before venturing into something.. might be boring yeah.. but it gives me a sense of assurance.. Some things in life just cannot be taken so easily I feel.. Don’t get me wrong.. I don’t just project into the future and not think about each day as it goes along.. I believe that we have to juggle everything all at the same time.. our past, our present and our future.. our past determines our current present.. and what we do with the present dictates our future.. It is no point just planning for the future and not enjoying the present moment.. I believe that you must go on in life with some surprises, otherwise it becomes routine and boring. However, what scares me about youth these days is that they just live life by the day.. they have no ambitions.. I don’t think you need to know exactly what you want to do.. but I feel that you should have at least some sense of direction.. not everything in life should be left unpredictable.

Oh yes, I also want to write a little bit about the places that I went for my trip.. especially all the Anne Frank stuff.. I am reading the book now.. having been to the house where she was hiding and the camp where she was taken to.. it gives me a more attached feeling to her life.. however.. that’ll have to wait for a while more.. You can view the pictures from the trip here though!

Now, I’m going to prepare some work for the kids! Ciao!

The final score is in.. Greece : Portugal = 1 : 0! The Greeks have won the Eurocup 2004! Unbelievable! For a team that started with a 1:80 odds of winning.. that’s an amazing feat! Before you think that I’m going to ramble on about the tactics of the game and blah blah.. fear not.. I won’t! In fact, I’m not a fanatic of football. I like watching the game, but if I am tired, I’ll not sacrifice my sleep. I might try to stay up watching the game, but if I fall asleep.. it doesn’t matter. I’ll read the final score the next morning. I won’t lose sleep over it!

Well anyways, back to what I wanted to say.. Greece is a team with virtually no big star players. The odds already proved that. They started the tournament with a great start. They were in a group with “stronger” teams.. Portugal, Spain and Russia. All the big names. Anyways, the first game was against the host nation.. Portugal. The Greeks won (and of course they will beat them again!).. and after a series of other matches and semi-finals, they had to go against one of the other dark horses of the game, the Czechs! The Czechs have had an amazing tournament. They beat every single team they meet throughout the competition. So in the semi-final of Greece against Czechs.. the odds were against the Greeks. However, they proved us all wrong. They beat the mighty Czechs! Amazing! So on they moved to the finals. And in the finals, they worked their ass off.. defending and attacking.. there were no star players.. no one tried to show off or prove their point. They just played their hearts out. They’ve never won any major competition ever. They had nothing to lose. They just played their hearts out. Football is afterall a team sport. Its no point having star players who do not play/work well with their teammates. In the end, it was the hardworking and never-say-die attitude of the Greeks that won the game.

This should just motivate us especially in our daily interactions with others.. that we don’t need “stars” or “experts” in our teams to excel.. we just need one key ingredient… PASSION. The passion for whatever you want to achieve.. its just a matter of how badly you want it.. and how hard you want to work for it. The Greeks wanted it badly (I would assume so did the other teams).. but they worked hard for it. That’s the difference.

To just dream and want something without putting in any effort is worthless… Kids, I hope you’ll remember that. Some of you have lots of dreams but they will only remain as dreams because you refuse to work towards your goals. I find it sad that you give up your aspirations after a few knocks along the way.. you need to find the resilience to pick yourself up and push on. Just like the Greeks. Work hard.. you’ll receive some hard knocks and tough challenges along the way.. it’s ok.. that’s life.. the result of rising up from our falls will be worth the effort.

Remember kids.. We all start on different levels.. some better.. some worse.. but it does not matter.. if we remain at those levels, we have not achieved success.. we need to make the most of what we have, of what we want.. and rise against the challenges and achieve the success that you dream of.

Do remember this.. its not where you start that matters, its where you end that counts.